cross roads

here i am at a fork in the road once more.... not a literal one.... a metaphorical one. looking back, i seee that the past has repeated itself.... only difference is different face, different name.... however, having said that, there are one of two things i can do about it.... either be really bitter about it for the rest of my life and make the next girl's life really miserable or i can take a latter option.... an option that is much darker..... this latter option has a catch to it though.... the goods are great.... and the downside is that it misses one of the most essentials for a quality life.... mind you from the past i have seen how good it can be.... this missing bit..... and i also know how bad it can be... a time of change is well overdue... and this one is a biggie.... i can tell.... but will it work?? will it truly be a better life for me?? i guess we will just have to find out.... experimentation, here i come.....