mention not tension not

as the mid semester break is over, sudden realization hits that there is not enough time left to "start" studying the material from earlier in the semester. there is so much to do and not enough time to do it. and with exams approaching at a scarily fast speed, its gonna be upon us in no time at all. all the slacking off from the start of the semester is now catching up all at once. and it seems like everyday, there is something due. and now is when i am really starting to hate myself for putting it off earlier. i was supposed to do this stuff in the 2 weeks i had off... but they passed by so quick that it was over almost as soon as it started. SHOCKS MAN!!!!

uh oh.......

sudden realisation hit me today.... i am 20 NOW!!!! HELP!!!! well... is it really that bad?? its getting to a point now where its the same every year... its one less reason to celebrate.. another year of feeeling older and more miserable about it... and like every year, the studies get harder... old friends drift further apart and more people come and go from your life. so what exactly is there to look forward to this year?? NOTHING :-(

and already, at this point i feel like my countdown has already begun. i HAVE to finish studies asap.... coz the next step of life is already awaiting. but there is so much to do. so many things to see... so many places to be... will i be able to get it all done?? or will i miss out on those things in life??

that song and THAT girl

so i just noticed that its been a long time since i last posted a blog entry. so here i thought i would share my thoughts with you once again. this entry was inspired one night when i was walking back from from my busstop after a day at uni. the usual stuff... walking back with the ipod on. that was when a song came on by the killers. its called Smile like you mean it. and i was thinking to myself, man this is one of my "older" music collections... i got that song when i was in high school and i started to think what my life was like back then. that was a song i got when i was with my very first gf. might i say she had the prettiest eyes ever. i was a sucker for those eyes the minute i met her. the way it used to make her face light up everytime she smiled. then i remembered how it did not work out with her. then more thinking led me to this. that the most beautiful people are not the ones with the flawless skin. they are not always the ones that say the right things. it truly is whats on the inside that matters. the people you end up liking the most could very well be those that dont have the flawless skins... the ones that dont always say the right things. they are REAL people. thinking about this right now, i laugh to myself.... as to how immature people can be when they are young... but then again... that is how one grows up.... you learn those important lessons through experience. coz in the books, the girls are always perfect, the guys are always muscly. unfortunately, life is not a book. life is not perfect. and if you are not prepared for it, life WILL screw you over. its sort of like when your parents put some sort of restrictions on you. atthe time, you hate it. you swear at them under your breath for it. but when you look back on the situatio a couple of years later, you realise (in some cases) how right they were and how stupid you were at the time for not listening to it.

ahhh.... those were the good old days. when the worst worry was my calculus class... electronics was a time pass... and the day was pretty routine and everyday i would see that girl with the pretty eyes. boy things do change really quickly huh.... whether they are for the best or worse, that is one conclusion that i will arrive to at the very end. after the time i draw my last breath. till then, i live it all out. no holding back.

no regrets


Sankalp

ending of a journey

as my time in india comes to the last few hours, i sit here at an internet cafe typing these words that you see before you. what started off on the morning on 4th december 07 is now coming to an end. this trip has taught me a lot of things. most important of which, not everone is always honest with you about everything. but apart from that, during my time here, i have also experienced a lot of things that are unique. things that most people never get to experience in a single lifetime. things that really open your eyes to the world and make you appreciate what you have. even though i have lost on a number of fronts while i have been here, i have also gained heaps in a lot of area and i would like to think that i leave this place a better person, physically and mentally, than i was when i arrived here and i would hope it changes me to a better human. as to what these "experiences" are?? well words in this universe are not enough to describe them so i am not even gonna bother. some things you just have to see to believe. and my aim of this trip was to experience everything i could in the time i have available. so if you wanna know what it is, then well, you just gottta come here to understand it. i cannot explain it to you.

anyways, ill post more with pics once i get back.

Sankalp Dave

its not all bad

after staying a while here in india, i have learnt a few things... a few VERY inportant things... life is not all that bad.... its not even all that complicated... and its only as messed up as you want it to be... being here in this place.... this apparent chaos... you see people live in it with tranquility... and you also see how people survive here with minimum finances.... and you take a step back and compare yourself... and find that you are one of those really lucky ones who doesnt have to struggle with these sorts of hardships. and it somehow people find themselves at peace in a city that doesnt shut up for a single second, why the hell is my life so screwed up when i am surrounded by nothing but peace and order... and its never too late to simplify everything..... break down the complex equations and live it all with peace.... anyways... wedding is getting very close... and i got a lot of stuff to do 2moro...

Sankalp Dave